There are somethings I can never forgive myself for.

And believing certain things is one of them.

Is it possible to be completely indifferent? To not care or to believe anything? Could you be so indifferent to not feel the need to believe anything?

Whatif I didn’t feel the need to believe in science? Or language? Or numbers? Or my senses? Or in the past? 

I’m making no sense.

And it’s all because I’m a fucking idiot and I believed things.