i am thinking of everything that’s gone wrong these last couple of months and i am the cause of it all and it’s making me want to punch myself repeatedly and claw myself open
and i am a total waste of space
and i can’t do anything right
and i such a fucking failure at everything
i can’t even go to my hide-away safe place because of me being a fucking piece of garbage
hahahaha yay everything is great just a regular 3 AM melt down and i am just going to bury it inside until i explode~
I am nothing
i wish i was a cat
cats dont have to worry about college or how much of a failure they are
Sometimes I really hate how much I suck at everything.
But I fucking can’t.
I wish I could have the guts and the motivation to do something exciting with my life.
And this has been - a late night thought.
I feel like shit.
I want to puke.
I am oh so very angsty.
I want to melt into my bed.
This happens every fucking time.
Can’t I just get something done right?